The letter came in the mail
. It was postmarked Cambridge and I recognized the return address. It was months ago I had sent in my poetry to the Cambridge writers collective for blind judging.
I had been writing poetry since I was a kid in high school but never before did I have the nerve to put my work out there for scrutiny.
It felt as if I were giving away my firstborn.
“Am I being presumptuous?” I thought . How could I compete with the likes of writers like David who encouraged me to submit?
I bet it’s a rejection letter.
They say you often have to expect hundreds of rejections before your work is accepted for publication. You need a thick skin.
There is a great deal of subjectivity that goes into decisions about the merit of a piece of writing. I know this. In our book club, we read books that some of our members raved over while others wondered why.
Certainly I invested a lot of energy and angst into the decision to send in my poems but finally, I swallowed my anxiety, followed the instructions for submission and waited.
This was the moment I had been waiting for. As I picked the letter out of the mailbox I could not open it there and then. I would go home, sit down with a glass of some fortification, which in my case was nothing more than an ice tea, and only then would I dare open the letter.
There I was in my easy chair. My husband was in his office next door. I had not told him about the mail yet. Holding my breath, I tore open the envelope and let out a whoop.
My dear man came in alarmed. “What happened?” He asked.
“I WON THIRD PRIZE!”
The following was my first prize-winning poem:
A bee came in while the men were
replacing the window
in the kitchen.
It could be a wasp.
I don’t know.
Oblivious to my musings,
it’s now feasting,
on the red velvet
of the Hibiscus flowers.
There are three out today.
The tree, always indoors has never
met a bee before.
Yet this insect knows it
intimately.
It makes me wonder, in my busy life,
if I take wing and explore
inside,
will I discover or recognize
and maybe, just maybe let myself savour
its unexpected sweetness
with no thought to
scrutiny?
Since that time I have not hesitated to give away any of my subsequent “babies”.
© Márta O’Reilly
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I love this poem. So visual. Nice work Marta
Marta, Such a lovely visual poem. I enjoyed readinging it. Well done. Barbara.
You’ve done it again Marta! A delicious poem.
Congratulation Marta. and a big thank you to your THURSDAY GROUP for the great and constant submissions for our readers to enjoy. Trish.